Roller Coaster

It's Friday night and I'm at home, yes my real home, no I'm not at the races or my pad at the office. Kinda depressing in a way as it's raining and only about 50. I know it's just a race, but really it's more than just the racing- it's being around people you enjoying being around and it's a few hours that takes your mind off the daily grind.

It doesn't help matters that the rest of the weekend is a washout probably everywhere. It will be up early to send the cancellation press release. I hate those. Then what? Idk. I was hoping to go to Lincoln, but looking at the radar right now, I can't imagine even them being able to race.

Maybe I can see Ashley, it's been a week tonight since I've saw her. I know she's had a bad week. From her time of the month, to working four days, to seeing someone she knows have a mini-stroke and calling the ambulance in front of her at work, to Kayla's big mouth. Why do people try make other people's lives their business? I believe it's jealousy- one of the worst sins that can take over one's life.

I try and try to figure Ash out but I just struggle. She's so hot and cold, but it's a typical situation I'd be in. I'd do anything for that girl. I love her to death.

I kept pretty busy at work today, although it was primarily beacuse MB wasn't there and I did both jobs. I missed her. Her, Ed, and Doug are like my new family and provide a much-needed fellowship. They really keep me going as I think I'd be going insane otherwise. I was on a high for awhile, then it went away quickly.

I slept for an hour at the office and stopped and picked up my check at Ruth's. Tonight's supper was a mayo-soaked Italian sub from Pizza Joe's in New Wilmington. For some reason anymore I've lost my appetite. I used to be able to eat with the best of them, now I can barely get down a meal. I think most times I'm hungrier at lunch than supper.

I didn't get the call I wanted. Oh I got one alright from Mr. Lou, who was sitting at the Italian Takeout getting a stupid piece of pizza. He called me right when I was turning onto Evergreen Rd.

I got caught up on my mail at home. Wasn't too much. Read three racing mags. Not much new there.

I'm dreading even going to sleep. I'm not real tired. I know I'll be up early and it's going to be a long, miserable weekend. I know that's terrible to say, but I really have to figure things out. I just can't stand to have nothing to do. Sometimes I wish I could be a bear and just hibernate.

Guess that's it. Idk.

Peace. :(

Mood Change

Ok yeah I'll admit it, I'm in a better mood. I can't really tell you why. It's sure not the weather as it's chilly and the sun is just now at 11:30 AM starting to pop out nor the impending weekend forecast.

I did get a text message from Ash at about 7 AM this morning. It was "Hi. I'm sick." It's the first I've heard from her since Monday night. I swear her rapidly changing moods have someone transposed to me. Sometimes I feel like I just want to be alone and other times I can't stand being be alone as I get "lonely". Vicki thinks my moods swings are worse than a woman and lately I'd probably have to agree.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do this weekend. I'll probably take Ash to Lernerville tomorrow night only to be rained out. Saturday is supposed to be in the mid 40s and rain and then rain/snow on Sunday and only about 40. I looked at some alternate plans, but it's supposed to be miserable everywhere in the Midwest and Northeast.

I've been off to a slow start racing wise this year. The weather was horrid late February and early March. Looks like we'll have our third cancellation in five weeks at Mercer Saturday. The last two Sundays have been beautiful, but now since Tri-City is to open Sunday the weather is going downhill. BTW...Tri-City is going to let Ash sign in with me. I've now managed to get her in free at Lernerville, Mercer, Tri-City, and Lincoln allows guests.

I asked Ash if she wanted to go to Aunt Karen's this weekend, but that was a negative. Maybe I'll go out and buy a TV on Saturday. I want to get satellite TV at the office. Vicki said she'd split it with me.

It's another quiet day here. Two youngins came in to fill out applications. Eva came in to see Doug and Sam and Cow were here to see Blaine.

I brought my leftover pizza from last night to eat for lunch. I can't believe it cost me $7.98 last night. One Tuesday I got the 8" pizza and a 20 oz. pop for just over $5.

Called Ash tonight and she called me back. We talked a few times. She's sounds sick, but was pretty upbeat even though and old lady she knew had a mini-stroke at the mall and she called 911. I'm so proud of that kid. I love her to death.

Went to Jay's Hot Dog's tonight. Got two cheddar dogs, a fry, a malt, and a water for $4.19. Can't beat their prices.

I got everything set to go for Saturday, though I didn't make all the copies because it's almost a sure bet we'll cancel. Ashley's dad is going to pump fuel.

That's all for tonight.

Peace.

Boredom

Is it just me or is April going slow? Maybe it's just my recent spell with boredom lately. I think it's my ultimate fear in life and in all actuality is the reason I started this blog. Is it possible to busy yet be bored? I can't stand to be still and not be doing something. I always worry that I won't have something to do. It seems of late I can't even relax to eat. Maybe it's just that it's on my mind and I'm thinking too much about it.

Maybe it's time for a vacation or a getaway. Hawaii cured my ills last Novemeber. It was a trip of a lifetime, one I surely won't forget.

I just haven't gotten into racing yet this year. The few early shows I saw at Lincoln and Williams Grove Speedways were great, but somehow I lost the excitement in April when action got underway here in western Pa.

People that are in the service industry that can't service amaze me. Why has the simple tast of ordering food become a chore a chore anymore? On Sunday I ordered a hot sausage sandwich and when I asked the waitress twice that cheese was on it she said yes. I also asked for a side of ranch with the chips. Of course when my order came, no cheese or ranch. Then the waitress apparently decided that since it was closing time she didn't have to wait on me. She finally took the sandwich back and had the cheese melted and was again reminded about the ranch, but of course when it came back delievered by another person no ranch was to be found.

I hate having to wait on condiments when your meal is sitting there in front of you. After an extended period of time it just ruins your meal.

This weekend's weather forecast looks horrible with a chance of showers Friday afternoon and showers and low 40s for Saturday and Sunday.

5 pieces of pepperoni and sausage pizza was my supper. It was supposed to be well done, but wasn't- there's a surprise.

Haven't heard from Ash in two days :(

It's been an aggrevating day. I've had enough. I'm going to bed.

Ttyl,

Peace.

The Journey Has Begun

Wow it's up and functional- a real blog just about its creator, Michael Vincent Leone, okay we'll just leave it as the 'great' Mike Leone. Welcome to my little nook and cranny on the web.

What a great stretch of weather we've had here in I swear one of America's dreariest region's- western Pennsylvania. It actually hasn't rained since April 7! Today is the warmest day of the year as it's pushing 80 and the yellow dandelions are sprouting up today.

I was saddened today to hear that ABC will no longer televise Monday Night Football. I felt that they had the best coverage between the other three networks (Fox, CBS, & ESPN). I sure hope that ESPN uses Al Michaels and John Madden. MNF wouldn't be the same without Michaels and since Madden joined as they have the most professional and enjoyable broadcast of anyone out there in any industry.

Today's food included Fruit Loops and a blueberry Pop-Tart for breakfast, chocolate chip muffins, crackers, and Mountain Dew for lunch, and ravioli, salad, bread and iced tea for dinner.

Today is my grandfather's 79th birthday. Sis King sent an e-mail to let us know that Rex's 40th birthday will be the night of the BRP race at Mercer on May 21.

Why do people not answer their cell phones? Is that not the point of having them?

The Catholic world is still upside down until a new Pope is elected.

Why do women wear clothes that are too small for them- especially overweight women? It sure isn't sexy to me.

Why can't women get along like guys can?

Today's usual suspects: Franty, Lori, Lucy, & Sam.

Ttyl,

Peace.